Crows Feet Worrying, deepening wrinkles, crows feet at my edges of time cut deeper from winds & storms into a well worn wall, adobe thick, mud proofed in the sun from my distresses. Storms, find me fretting over uselessness. Silverware, china patterns, the right gauge shot gun, sofa colors & styles, impenetrable impeccable prayers, correctly folded towels, right answers, dishes in the dishwasher stacked in strictest order. Ah, lost cause self-flagellating perfectionist, seeking shelter between idiot temples of ridiculous donkeys believing themselves to be storming gods. One – Rightness, the other – Correctness. With their stomping thunder clap hoofs and lightning they strike at my feet and eyes, blinding me, forcing me to jittery dance between their stubborn hatefulness.
© SB Joy, 2021
Ah, perfectionist affliction: What emotion, life event, pain lays under it? Shame, self loathing, pride…?
SBJ
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I was trained and conditioned in self contempt and betrayal modeled by “for your own good” parents.
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😞. Childhood boot camp… then we spend a life time trying to undo.
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